Monday Musings | Fk Monday

Today started out like any Monday would. Behind schedule, under motivated, and with far less caffeine than would be desired. Not a good initiating point to the week, considering today is a full day of work, personal goals are looking me dead in the face asking when I intend to get to them, and in general there’s just. Shit. To accomplish. That I’m slowly, barely getting through within the schedule that I set for myself today.

On the plus side, this post is one of those things, so I guess I can pat myself on the back for accomplishing one (1) whole thing today.

It’s been said before but I don’t really care: I get the impression every time Monday rolls around that the expectation for Mondays to be horrible possibly colors the way Mondays turn out. The impending, looming doom of the Monday that lingers in Sunday’s horizons almost always tends to turn out just how we think it will – fucking terrible. I went to bed last night dreading the thought of something happening that would throw me off my neatly calculated schedule for today, and here I am, having gotten to work about an hour and a half off schedule, making an attempt to catch up. Either self fulfilling prophecy is real, or I’m a prophet.

Either way, I’m at least getting things done, even if I’m getting them done late. That self-imposed one in the morning curfew for myself might have to be disregarded in order to get it done, but what can I expect? It’s a Monday. Best to take it by the balls, down a few cups of coffee and get through it.

Serious Frustrations | Rape In Horror

I’m going to preface this with the obvious content warning. This is going to be discussing rape, and my frustrations with how it’s used in writing – particularly in film. Not going into details, but just be aware if this is a topic that can upset or trigger you. This also might not be the most cohesive piece of writing, but the title says it all. I’m frustrated.

Now. On with it

I’m sitting here, watching a horror movie. It’s October, and a custom for me. It’s spooky season. The time for fright. I tend to like to indulge that by watching whatever horror/suspense movies happen to be on the number of subscription services I pay for. Today, it’s some trash on Hulu.

I’m minding my own business. The movie isn’t great, but the entertainment isn’t really supposed to be in an award-winning plot or outstanding characters, it’s supposed to be what scares me or makes me jump or say ‘woa, that’s super fucked up.’ I like gore and good ‘ol hack ‘n’ slash movies like any other horror junkie, okay?

Anyway. Group of young folk in the middle of the woods. The why isn’t really important, it’s a small sliver to the plot but the important thing is most of them are going to die. Also, apparently all the women have to be raped. That’s a main plot device. All three of the women who are murdered are raped prior to their murders, and the two surviving women are threatened with it – them being raped is key to the assailants’ master plan – before they are saved. It’s all very, very scary.

If agitation was a font, I’d have used it just then ^

It’s something that comes up in a lot of horror films – hell, it’s something that comes up often in other genres, as well – but I’ve found that horror likes to sprinkle in a overzealous dose of rape to their plots. Just to top off all the blood and gore, why not add in sexual assault. And… why? Why is it necessary?

I know, this is probably a silly question to be asking of subpar to decent-grade horror, but I’m asking it regardless.

I suppose the argument could be made that, well gee, Paris, you’re watching a slasher film and you expect there not to be rape? but my issue is less with the fact there is rape, and more in the fact that it just seems to be tossed into the equation as only something that (1) can happen for women characters and (2) will happen to women characters. Because they’re women, and women just get raped. That’s the message that I get anytime these movies go for that ‘shock’ scene. It’s not a very good message, in my opinion. Wild axe murderers and cannibals, or zombies and other undead are things most people will never experience, because they’re wild situations or simply impossible. Rape is one of those things that isn’t and it’s portrayal in horror (and again, film and writing in general) is problematic at best and damaging at worst. It’s either the ‘slut’ character (which, oh boy, we could have a whole discussion on that can of worms) the ‘innocent virgin,’ the ‘troubled youth-‘ regardless, the rape is coming, and it’s obvious, and it’s somehow the only bad thing that can happen to you as a woman, so the plot has to capitalize on that sexual violence. You can almost feel the urgency within the plot narrative that screams, if we don’t have them all raped, then that’s a wrap! After all, it’s obvious people crave it. Audiences sickeningly eat up the tragic mid-horror rape scenario and love it when it happens again and again. Because it breaks the woman down. Or it builds her up. Whatever stupid excuse people make to justify the needless rape plot device, though I think the excuses say a lot about how people view the act outside of seeing it in film.

Maybe I’m asking for too much creativity when it comes to horror films. It could be the case of me wanting more (says the woman who admits to liking hack ‘n’ slash, I know.) Perhaps that’s my issue – I expect too much. But I feel there’s no limit to expectation, regardless of genre, and to accept the uncritical application of a theme like rape within any genre of film or writing, in my opinion, is lazy. To not ask yourself and other’s viewing and enjoying why it doesn’t seem like a big deal, why people don’t cringe in the ‘oh, why did they need to do that like that’ sort of why. Perhaps it’s my personal experiences with things like sexual abuse and rape that prevent me from seeing the entertainment value in willy-nilly, uncritical, downright badly written, poorly-used rape scenes.

Whatever the reason, I still find myself unrestrained in my frustrations that that’s where writers and directors and whomever else working on a piece go when they think of things that will horrify. As if rape is a marketable commodity that will better sell the product you’re putting to market.

That seems wrong to me. We can do better. We should do better. It’s easy to fall back on ‘this will shock people,’ but is it necessary? Is it worth it? Why is it always excused as a genre trademark?

How do we change it?

Morning Thoughts | 9.16.16

I’ve been thinking a lot about success. What does it mean, as a writer, to be successful? Does it come with stacks and stack of plotting material? Does it come when people praise your work? Does it happen when you get published? Published again?

I always used to think that success as a writer came when you’d sold millions of copies and signed movie deals for you five-book series, or when you were touring the world promoting and news networks were calling you for interviews. But how many writers actually ever get to that point? Do the millions of authors out there that never hit that point, count as unsuccessful writers?

I don’t think so.

It feels to me, now that I’ve been writing continuously, that success comes more from where you see yourself. Success can come from finishing a novel that you never publish, or writing poetry every day, or publishing a blog post on time. It can be found in a friend telling you they love a piece you wrote – or a complete stranger saying that you made them feel something.

Success is what you make of it.

Morning Thoughts | 9.13.16

I’m thinking more and more on the idea of doing more flash fiction. I’m not new necessarily to one shots, but writing short pieces (really, really short pieces) I think will be good practice for me for learning how to cut down on words while still telling a good story. I’d also like to build […]

Morning Thoughts | 9.7.16

I love the flexibility of story telling.

Most people think of story telling happening in physical books. Novels. The written word. You get the point. But there’s so much good story telling in other mediums. I’ve read comics and watched movies/shows or anime that have fantastic writing, played games that have amazing story lines. Mediums outside of books that keep you captivated because of the characters, the setting, the plot – the twists and turns that make the story unique.

It’s really amazing the different ways that people can tell stories outside of traditional books. I think that’s part of what makes story telling so fun – you can do so in whatever way you please as long as you do it effectively.